I am so sorry on the loss of your dear Richard. Please know that there is a comforting scripture in the Bible found at Psalms 34:17 & 18. There it reminds us that Jehovah really hears those who cry out to him, and he longs to be there for those who mourn. I pray you reach out for that guidance, and may you also find support and care in the many who truly loved and knew "Rik". My deepest condolences.